Once again I find myself at a crossroads
Wondering whether I should let you go

Not completely
As my heart would never allow it
But let go of the dream

Everything I once thought I wanted so much
Is losing its sparkle

I still want you
Despite everything that is going on of late
But I no longer find myself wanting to be with you
Fighting over every inch of ground

You are so afraid of losing control
Wont allow love of any form into your life

Being hurt so much
Kicking dirt into the open wounds on my heart
You keep throwing my kind words back in my face
Pushing me away so far
But never completely letting go

I feel like a puppet on a string
You pulling at my heart strings like a yo-yo
Promising hope for the future
We could be one day
Then pushing me so far away

My broken heart shattering countless times
As reality hits home

You will never fully let go
Lose control
Not enough to ever fully love someone

Love is losing control completely
Not owning your feelings

And that scares you so much
Unable to control something
That you undermine all attempts

Saying you want it so badly
Want to have someone
Need to share your heart
But you will never fully let go
Never let someone close enough
To allow them to love you

My heart keeps hold of blind faith
Hoping one day this will change
And you will see me standing here

But my head

My head knows better
You will never let someone see you completely
Lose control enough
To love them